Being Unique

   Yesterday I wrote about fear and how we should face our fears and live our lives and it got me thinking.
How many of us actually live our lives the way we want to? I mean how we really want to, being who we really are and not living our lives to other peoples expectations.

  I know I often hold back who I am, trying to conform to society's idea of normality. In fact the more I try I think the more I fail. But really that is a good thing. Who wants to be a sheep following the rest of the flock? We are all unique and should celebrate the differences in each other not pick them out and use them to humiliate or degrade.

  I was bullied terribly all through school and it really affected my confidence and self image. I started trying to be more like a "normal" girl with the hair and the makeup and all it did was draw more attention to me and the fact that I just didn't fit in. So I went back to me, no makeup or fuss with hair and just tried to stay invisible.

  Since then that is what I have pretty much always tried to do, not stand out. Whether it be hiding intelligence or wearing unremarkable clothes there are many ways I try to just be a face in the crowd for fear of being humiliated. There is that word again. Fear. Well like I said yesterday its time to face my fear and start living my life. I am unique and I should and will celebrate that fact. The people who matter to me will love me no matter what so its about time I stop with the putting myself down and start loving myself too. I am who I am and if you don't like it then you never really cared about me at all...